There are many moms that work and balance their kids with out a husband. Mom's that have loving husbands that are away defending my freedom. Kids that do not know where their parents are but have faith their providers are going to feed them. I really have it pretty good if you ask me.
Openly i have complained. well moaned and groaned. A lot.
today i want to tell you about the things that have helped me find LIGHT in every thing.
First and for most i am a firm believer that although God is always with us we run to Him when things stink. Well i didn't just run; i screamed. I was angry that he provided for me--- Really i was mad at Him for the opportunities here. i Figured if he hadn't provided we wouldn't have been here in the first place. I spent more time in the word preparing for kids worship, studying for bible studies etc than i had ever before--- yet Satan found this perfect opportunity to steal me away. Sometimes being married to a star wars guy we joke about "crossing over to the dark side" well let me tell you it is as scary as the movie presents it!
Gratefully, we were still attending church and i got to go be with the greatest girls at camp for a week. Spending a week with "tweenage girls" will change your perspective on ANYTHING! During that week God spoke to me as much as He spoke to those girls. Being with the other counselors is always awesome and uplifting. But these girls-- man you would envy me to be in the depths of those late night discussions. Privileged as i am i also got to spend that very same week with dear friends and 4 campers from last year that will always be near my heart. The SAME God that provided my husband with the job here-- provided me a week of prospective. He has continued to provide me with physical proof of His provision.
If you or anyone you know is a new mom or new to an area. SEND HER TO MOPS! This is a Christian organization that provides a safe places for moms to support each other. Attending the what i refer to as a "mega" church it was really hard to connect. MOPS has opened up a way for me to not only meet people, but to meet people in the same stage of life i am in. Plus given me the daily encounters with other God fearing women that i longed for. At the church we attended before there were several of us that had kids of similar ages, and would get together to play and chat-- a much needed outlet when you speak preschooler each day! Being involved with mops has slowly opened those doors back up for me.
Grateful can't explain how i feel about those very same women encouraging me when i moved here. My buds back home have never let me go. They continue to pray for me and are always bringing me back to wear i need to be. Thank you all Ladies.
reading other blogs written by other amazing women, reading books about grief and what God expects from me as a women have been excellent helps as well.
The most important thing tho, girls, is to remember that you are not alone, Ever. I still cry out my Savior in the middle of the night when one of my little ones isn't able to be consoled. There are also pals i can text/call when i am at my wits end in those moments. Cherish the special people God blesses you with to journey alongside. His provision isn't always measured in food and drink. i do love to share a good bite to eat with my girls tho :)
The end of all things is near. Therefore be alert and of sober mind so that you may pray. 1 Peter 4:7
